May 1, 2012

a promise kept


Everything changed, it was over so fast
they were so happy but then the time passed...
and they woke up one day, faced with a plight
'cause deep down they knew that this wasn't right. 

To keep fighting for something they just couldn't get
was unfair to each other, like birds in a net
they were trapped by their feelings, it was far worse than tough
because they soon realized that love isn't enough.

In the old songs they say love is all that you need
but it must not be true...it was painful to see,
that although their love for each other was real
there was something else needed, more than what you feel...

something they never could manage to find...
no matter how hard each of them tried.
They stood at a crossroads, where the choice must be made
and they knew that their lives would not be the same.

So with tears and hearts breaking, it came to an end
but also a new start, for now they were friends.
And as hard as it was to let go of the past
and move on from what was, 'cause it just didn't last...
they did. They grew stronger, with each passing day
and the friendship they had cast a light on their way.

At first she felt lost when the "we" became "me"
it had been us for so long it was hard now to see...
her life seemed so empty, drained of it's cause
when she felt her heart breaking she just had to pause...
when she felt so alone that the tears bathed her cheeks
she just had to remember...he's still there for me.
'Cause even though things now were not how they'd been
they were looking beyond that. He was her friend.

And a friend is a gift, so keep looking ahead,
even though when it happened, her mind loudly said
"This is too hard, and too painful
turn your back and don't try"
But deep down she knew, as tears filled her eyes
that wouldn't be fair, and it wouldn't be best
for when life gets so hard sometimes its just a test...
to see what you're made of, and how much you cared
when you said, as a friend, that you'd always be there.
You can prove with your actions and show with your strength
that a promise, no matter how hard, doesn't fade.

As the friendship began, both of them tried
to build something new...over scars deep inside.
And i know scars don't heal, but in time they don't hurt
they'll just be a reminder of all that you've learned. 
'Til you're left with a friendship...stronger than ever
because only through storms you'll learn what you can weather.

Being friends will last longer than anyone said
now your heart's not so broken, 
but it's also not dead. 
'Cause you've chosen, in friendship, to learn from the past...
and look to the future, where you might at last
both find whatever you've been searching for.
Your journey's beginning...just open the door. 




4-28-2012

April 29, 2012

4:41 p.m.



"To be a winner, you have to be willing to roll the dice."

April 11, 2012

yesterday...



Yesterday it was sunny, and felt like Summer might be here.
              Today it rained. And rained. And rained.



Yesterday i went for a barefoot walk. 2 miles over dirt, gravel, and asphalt.
         Today i wore socks and shoes on my bruised and blistered feet.
And didn't take them off. 





Yesterday i slept in 'til 9:30.
    Today i climbed out of my warm bed at 6.





Yesterday i bought a camera.
 Today i bought farm-fresh eggs.






Yesterday i drove on the freeway.
  Today i took winding country backroads.





Yesterday i served burritos for dinner.
  Today i warmed up macaroni for lunch.





Yesterday i felt alone.
     Today a friendship made everything worlds better.




Yesterday i put on an anklet.
   Today 'my little girl' called it a Footlet.






Yesterday my life was a mess.
 Today the floor was a mess.







Yesterday i drew a breath and stayed above the current.
  Today i drew a butterfly for her to color.








Yesterday i had ice-cream for a snack.
  Today i ate pear and tangerine.








Yesterday my life felt like a puzzle i didn't have all the pieces to.
 Today i helped a real puzzle come together.








Yesterday i wore a black shirt, to match my mood.
  Today i wore Minnie Mouse 'cause it's her favorite.






Yesterday my theme song was "Hold On" (Michael Buble).
  Today i listened to "Firework" (Katy Perry). Over and over.





Yesterday fairytales were far from my mind.
 Today playtime had a happily ever after.







Yesterday i poured out my heart on paper. 
  Today i poured milk into sippy cups.






Yesterday i decided promises can be hard to keep.
       
Today i realized hard doesn't mean impossible.



And tomorrow's still coming. 

April 9, 2012

4:23 p.m.





"Where there is no struggle, there is no strength."

March 21, 2012

an update...of sorts


Somehow life keeps getting busier...and the fact that I don't have a camera makes it hard to take pictures :)

Luckily I have my phone...here are a few random pictures from the past several weeks. 




I made pancakes. And they were edible.
it was a big day for me...




lots of driving has been happening around here.
this was the one nice day out of the last hundred depressing ones...




food 
also called art




being dragged along on a frog hunting trip
the highlight was when i sat in a puddle






games of monopoly...
that never seem to end





Nerf Wars...they gave me the big sword 
and I still got slaughtered...





drinking homemade chocolate milk
and getting totally addicted





Watching movies together
and arguing over discussing the merits of watching horror movies






art






Baby calves for the first time!
kind of feels like a farm again






shopping at Claire's
he's my partner in crime






art







Dr. Suess is awesome
but "Green Eggs & Ham" over and over can and will put you to sleep...






My job as a nanny keeps me busy. 
and ever so tired. 







but we have our drinks to keep us going :) 






And I will end with this...
amazing how one little picture can make me so happy.